Growing up

Although physically and mentally I am deteriorating since I entered UM but honestly I felt that I have grown up cognitively... I am 23 now and I have 7 more years to end the age beginning with the number 2... I do not want to waste my 20s with all the nonsense and ludicrous.. I should bring my life to the peak of the mountain and do something to enrich my experience and knowledge.. Hence, I came out with the "must-do-list" with my best friend... I wanted to become a good friend and spread the positive influences to her.. So I asked her to come out with this list too.. They are six things I should done it by this year.. These six things to me are minor matter but they are something that will affect my future in the aspect of appearance and health.. I am contented with my lists but I wanted to add one more thing to my list which is learning either guitar or violin by this year... Wish me good luck..

Lost

Well, no class again for tomorrow.. Let me think, how many times I have skipped classes? This is the fourth week of my semester and I skipped for only two classes so far which are Research class and Unit class(if he counted I absent tomorrow).. I think my life is too easy.. Yet I like to complain that my courses are hard, the assignments are demanding and money is not enough for me to spend, etc.. These are nothing if I were to use all these complaints to compare with others who take medical course or accounting course, the assignments and courses are far more difficult than mine and of course for those who stays far away from their parents and money to them is more important than mine.. Why am I so demanding and not appreciate with what I have now?? ~SHOOT ME~ 

What is my problem now?? I have no problem.. All the problems I encountered eventually were not problems.. They are something that I created meaninglessly in my life.. My assignments actually are easy, the courses I took are easy-going with the nice and kind lecturers I have and the money I have is enough for to spend + I have my parents' financial support.. I should be satisfied.. YES~~ I should... Sorry Chui for asking you to give me your voucher which is the same as asking you for your money..I should not do this right?? Everyone has the same amount which is fair and square.. Since I have used mine, I should not ask for more.. Even though she may not going to use her voucher, is her right for her either to throw, waste or give her vouchers to anyone she likes.. I should not do that.. Sorry

OK.. Back to the topic.. I am not lost.. I decided to use RM200 every month for shopping and the remainder of my book vouchers to buy books that will upgrade my cognitive thinking and personality... 

~~YES... KEEP ON GOING & ENJOY YOUR LIFE~~~

27/2/2013 Wednesday + 28/2/2013 Tuesday

Well, I wanted to update my blog yesterday but the feeling of idleness overwhelmed me. Hence, I give up writing...

Refreshing my memory about yesterday, well, the most remarkable event was the outing with the maniacs which included Grace, Wana, Nadia and of course my lovely "second messenger" a.k.a Tien. Gan was excluded from the name "maniac" because he was quiet and isolated in our outing. This was also my first time to go out with Grace and Wana.. Out of my expectation, our outing was not awkward, yet enjoyment and laughter appeared. We went to Ampcord Mall, a place where WAna and Gan have never been before. We had Tien and my favorites which are McD and Starbucks. We went to Book Access too. I spent all the money in my purse and a voucher worth rm50. Now, I left only RM 150 book vouchers. I need to spend these money wisely because to be frank, I am not a book worm. I seldom use my money to buy books, instead I will use them to but clothes>< Not forget to mention, my best friend Tien was scolded by our proficiency teacher because of her very bad habit, which is, playing phone during lesson. hahahaha

OK. Back to today happenings. Well the lecturer for Language Learning is so weird and always making me speechless in his class. He is either too fast in reading his notes or dismisses the class what ever time he likes. Today, I went to the class early with full of preparation to record and catch up his notes. Unexpectedly, he dismissed us within 20 minutes if I am not mistaken with the reason that we were not asking any questions related to the topic that he wrote on the whiteboard. I mean even a professor needs to be well prepare before he goes to any conference or meetings. Then, how about us?? He didn't inform us beforehand to do research or preparation about these topics, so how was he going to expect us to ask him questions related to these topics?? All I can say is, his salary is easy to earn. No wonder many students failed his class in previous sem and sem. Then about PTPTN loan was making me speechless as well. Why can't the government standardize the loan that they bank in into our account every sem?? Sometimes more than RM 1000 and sometimes less than that... Luckily, I was alert. It was impossible for my account to have more RM2000. As what I predicted, they haven't deduct my overall fee yet. But there is one thing that I should be grateful is the remainder of my money after deduction is more than RM1000...

The last thing I wanted to talk about is my relationship with my friend, Gan. He seems to be so far away from us. Why is this happening? Seriously, I have no idea. I felt that he is weird and annoying. Ya. It is true that as a friend we should accompany each other but going to kps withdraw money requires our company as well? He purposely chased us because he wanted us to company him to kps to withdraw money? Is kps dangerous? No, even if it was, it will not be robbery, is may be patty cases. I think he can protect his properties and himself. He can go back to his hometown alone why can't he go to kps himself? Does he withdraw more than rm100000? NO. What is my functions there? My duties are to stand there and panting. Haiz, seriously, I hope that he can be more brave and stronger physically and mentally. He can't hope for our companions until the end of his life. However, Tien is able to do so because she is single and they have the very low possibilities to couple up. Hope he will change to a better person in future.

22 February 2013

I thought that I will not need to attend Friday classes throughout my whole study years.. For three consecutive semesters, I had no classes on Friday.. I was so happy for this.. Friday eventually is a sleeping day for me.. However, this semester, it is mandatory for me to attend Friday class.. I was reluctant to attend this class but I was glad that I was able to register for this class.. I cannot evade to register for this class.. In any one of the remaining semesters, I will have to enter this class too.. If so, I would like to attend this class with my good friend...Haiz, sad Friday T.T

In the library, my friend and I were trying to arrange and plan for our future semesters.. In the process, we realized that we had studied in UM for already two years... Time passes in a blink of eyes without our acknowledgement... And we found out that we learned nothing from the course but we learned something not related with the course.. Is this something we should be proud of?? I dont know.. I only know that we cannot regret for our doings at the past... Be happy of who we are and be satisfy of what we have now..

              ~BE HAPPY, NO WORRIES~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ^^

好的开始

今天很开心啊。本来还很担心一切都不会很顺利， 怎么知道吉人只有天上。今天我的老老拿了工钱啦还有花红。平常对人来说，拿工钱和花红是个很开心的事。 可是对我和老老来说， 这是一个很好的开始， 所以特别的开心。本来还很担心钱不够用。因为最近撞倒车，还有过年需要用到满多的钱。心里很纳闷的想，咳，这个月肯定又没有的存钱还要省吃呢。可是现在不但有的花还有的存呢。很好很好。 我都知道我老老是可以的。老老，继续加油。就是因为老老好，自然而然我也受益。怎么说人是很现实的。我爸妈也不另外。他门看到那个礼篮，真的很开心。还是我最了解他们。咳。可是我好像吹打了那个价钱。早知道就不要说那么高，好像有点夸张。有点后悔了。对不起。希望他们不要再问我那个礼篮的事了 T.T
可是人不可以自大也不可以那么容易的满主。现在可能那些钱对我们来讲是很多，可是我们还要继续望前上。
谢谢老老那么努力的为我和我们的将来奋斗。 谢谢我老老的斑斑那么的看好他。他可是我老老的伯乐。竟然斑斑那么好， 我希望他水越来越多， 越来越大。也要谢谢我自己，看好我老老，做我老老的私人助理还有管钱的那个。

重要

“姐， 你没有人追么？” 这问题我从我父母身上听了很多遍。 每次我听到他们这样问我， 我都不懂要怎么回答他们。我知道他们都是为了我好可是每次听到他们问我这问题， 我就会很生气。 难道钱真的那么重要吗？爸，你以前不是常常和我说吗，找一个男人最重要就是一定要对我好吗？可是为什么现在我找到了， 你却又显他没有钱？我懂人对别人是很现实的除了家人， 我爸妈对他也不另外。 他们不想我以后辛苦的和我男人过辛苦的日子。所以我明白他们的用心。为了不让他们担心， 我说了一个骗话。 我也不懂这个狂言可以瞒的多久。可是我很希望我讲的可以变成事实。我对他真的很有希望。我相信他终有一天会是成功的。命运是自己控制的。 现在没有的东西并不代表以后你也是不会拥有。 只要你努力去争取， 你就会拥有 。坦白说， 我知道世界上没有一个人可以担保一段感情永远的长久。所以， 我对这分感情虽然是真的可是难免还是有一点保留。我很怕受到伤害。我不懂在几年几月几号， 他可能会离开我。 可是就算 他离开我， 我还是希望他会变的有钱成功的男人， 养的其他爱的女人。

Unvoiceable feeling

OMG.. Well, I am here again because I really want to write my this moments feeling down.. Guess what?? I got full marks for my English Proficiency forum... Yeah... To be frank, I m really very happy about it.. I felt like I want to announce this news to the whole world... to everyone.. to all my friends.. to my family and Mr.Egg... But I know I can't... Because for sure later they are people who think that I am boosting myself and arrogant because of this minor thing.. Well maybe it is a minor news for the people around me but for me it is a news that able to fly me up... So I decided to post my feelings here...When, she said that there are some people who managed to obtain full mark, I never come across in my mind that one of them will be me.. So, I thought that probably I will get around 20 something.. Well, I had this range of marks for myself is not because I try to be humble but I felt that my performance that day was bad.. First I prepared the script a day before the forum and I did not have a time to practice my speech.. Second, on that day of forum I was nervous... Third, when I had my forum, everything went smooth at the beginning but at the end I was stuck.. Shoot me.. Of course at the moment I was panicked yet I told myself to be calm.. Just said whatever came into my mind..Because of these three reasons, I felt terrible and I deleted the script I prepared.. I do not hope to see this script again..

But i was wrong.. I managed to get 40 and I managed to get compliment from Madam Uma... She said that I was the best presenters on that day.. She knew that I was struggling but she said I managed to continue my performance... And she said my pronunciation was clear and cut off... Well, I am happy to have the compliments from her.. Thanks Madam Uma... At that time, I really hope that my best friend Tien Tien was there as well as Gan.. I hope to hug her on the spot but she was not there.. So instead of hugging her I hugged Inia..^^

Well, I was quite satisfy with my progress this semester.. I felt that I improved alot.. But I cannot rest on laurels.. I have to continue to make improvement and be the best in my world.. I will only compete with my previous self...My principle is to try my best in everything so that I will never regret for my action...Lastly,

                    PEARLY HOR~~~JIA YOU~~KEEP FIGHTING~~~DAEBAK