Go for IT LOH

For two consecutive days, I went to Midvalley.. This was the first time in my life to go to Midvalley for so two times in a week.. Spent quite a lot T.T

I have this friend, who is to me, clumsy, innocent and kind..
These few days, quite frequent, I hang out with her and I started to realize a lot of things about her..
She has personalities which are totally opposite from me..

She is a happy go lucky person which I am not.. I will feel sad and angry if something goes wrong with what I wanted or planned.. But it takes me only one day to be happy back.

She is a person who thinks an action, has a desire or decision, she will instantly do it or achieve it without further consideration or thinking.. I am not.. When I want to carry out an action, I need to think of many things.. Which is to me, a quite bad behaviour.. Worries or think too much makes you further away from your dream.. Once you started to consider a lot and come out with results or questions that might or might not happen, you will start to afraid to make the first step.

She is a person who will not think negatively.. I will.. When I wanted to do something, I always think for the worst results and what should I do if the worst result happens.. She told me failure or success of a matter we cannot control it.. The only we can do is work hard and do the best for it..

When watching horror movie, she dares to listen to the horror sound effects with closed eyes but I am not.. I cannot listen to these sound but I dare to open my eyes and watch the movie.. hahaha (SO PROUD)

Yes, she is clumsy, messy, innocent and blurred but I guess she is happier than I am.. She is able to show me something that I don't have and I should learn from her..


Thanks hotty ><

I realized...

Today is the last day of September..
In a blink, 2014 nearly reach the end... Three more months to go and I am going to celebrate New Year again.. Sigh again for the speed of time..

I have learned Korean for almost a year and I learned this language from three Korean exchange students including this new teacher.. From Seulgi to Cha Ryeong from Cha Ryeong to Hyeong Min, I realized Cha Ryeong is the best tutor among the other two.. She is more friendly and taught better than the other two..

I realized can't stand hunger.. If I am starved, I will feel headache and nausea.. I love food but I do not hope to become fat.. Contradiction occurs = =

I realized I can't poop at other toilets except at the toilet in my house.. I am scolded by Mr.Egg and my friends for my bad habit of bearing the poop from coming out rather than go and poop it out..

Recently, I had just finished watching "It's Ok, That's Love".. A unique Korean drama because this drama is unlike the usual Korean drama that we watched.. It is not about dying, crying, and pathetic love but it is about human psychology.. The importance of family' s influence and treatments to children in their childhoods.. The different types of psychology that exist in this world.. Going to see psychologist doesn't mean that you are abnormal but instead they make you feel comfortable by chatting with them and expressing out your anger and depression..

I realized I am kind of admired the main actor in this drama... He is handsome and charming unlike the usual flower boys in Korea..
I realized I am addicted to the OST in this drama especially the English songs used in this drama..
I realized I am started to have interest in learning or get to know more about human psychology..

Many things to realize in this month...
By the way, my 30-day exercising that I posted in previous blog has officially FAILED T.T

20 facts about myself

Come out with "20 facts about yourself" is a viral challenge now in Instagram...
So I have two friends here who nominated me to do this challenge: My best friend and Michelle ^^

It was really a challenge for me.. It took quite a long time for me to think and come out with these 20 facts.. The worst thing is, it took me 5 times to re-upload the photo with the 20 facts to Instagram ==  The first time I failed to upload and I lost all the 20 facts that I have typed T.T So the second time I tried to upload the photo, I was smart... I copy all the words that I have typed.. So if this time, I was unable to upload but I have saved the facts.. Hehehehe...I found this challenge is quite interesting and attractive.. It really helps me to think deeply about myself..

This was what I came out with..

20 facts about myself:

1. I love to drink coffee but I have zero knowledge about coffee.

2. I love Kang Gary from Running Man. I love his personalities and appearance based on what I saw in Running Man but I do not like most of his songs.

3. I love to eat spicy food especially tom yam.

4. I put water to my rice if I eat petai.

5. I am lazy. I want to be slim but I am lazy to exercise. I love to read but it takes months for me to finish a book or novel.

6. I dislike add math and physics. I hate calculations.

7. I have birth marks on my back left bottom. I call it my countries because these birth marks look like countries on a map which is my skin.

8. I love my friends and Mr.Egg but I believe that anything can happen and change in friendship and relationship except family bonding.

9. I am quiet and shy to strangers and new friends. It takes times for me to show you my true colours (crazy, funny and nonsense girl) to them.

10. I act childishly but I think maturely. 

11. I love to mingle with kids rather than adults. Because to me, adults are more complicated.

12. I love science especially biology. I am amazed on how the organs and systems in humans, insects and animals function.

13. I am conscious with my belongings or ODC(maybe?). I have to put my belongings to the right place after I have used it.

14. I do not hold grudges for long. I am unable to angry with someone for more than one day.

15. I like to wear stripless bra.

16. I have pimples and scars (from pimples) on my face.

17. I have oily face and hair. So when it is afternoon, my face and hair start to become oily.

18. I want to feel the feeling and experience of pregnancy but I am not eager and ready to be a mother or wife.

19. I don't think I am fertile as I suffer with period pain every month.

20. I think about death and growing up when I am having insomnia.

Actually, there must be more than 20 facts about myself but it is just that it is hard for me to think. Maybe two more which are: I like to pose "peace" in almost all my photos & I love to cut my fringe straight and above my eyebrow level.

My new challenge.. Since my grandparents said I am fatter.. Now I want to be determined and challenged myself with this 30-day exercising challenge... Hope after 30 days, I am able to see some changed to my body ^^

No money, No everything

Human requires these basic elements to survive: water, air, food and shelter.. This is not a stone age era where these basic elements are free for us.. This is GLOBALIZATION & MODERNIZATION ERA, where everything needs $$$$$ except air...

Just read through an article about buying house in Malaysia.. Went to check, only I found out that the cheapest house, a condominium, needs at least RM600,000 ++.. A small and narrow condominium... WHY SO EXPENSIVE??? The two-storey house that I am living now needed only RM 200,000++ in 10 years ago.. Now with RM600,000 ++, I can't afford to buy a double-storey house, instead, this amount of money can only afford to buy a condo T.T

My dream house ~~~ VANISH~~~ Wanted to have a double-storey house with a small garden where I can have a pond, a place for barbeque and a place where my children can run around and cycling... I think this is kind of an innocent and unrealistic dream in this era... Now, the houses are already so so so so so so so so EXPENSIVE... Then how about 10 years later? LAGILAH EXPENSIVE

Haiz.. How I want to afford to buy a house?? Shelter, a basic element for human, is becoming a thing that is extravagant and unaffordable.. I should start thinking now..

Who should I depend on to buy a house?
How much should I save to buy a house?
What kind of house should I buy?
Where should I stay?
Can I buy a house by myself?

Things are becoming better as time goes but to have these things, you must have money first...
No money, how you want to become better in your lifestyle?
MONEY! MONEY! MONEY!

How do you see me?

Friends who know me, see me as a happy go lucky person...
Strangers who do not know me, see me as a quiet and shy person..
Family who sees me since young, see me as an innocent and clumsy person..
Passer-by who knows my face but do not talk to me, see me as an arrogant person...

I do not like noise...
I do not like problems, but at the end I will accept and solve these problems...
I will angry but after a day, I will forget and forgive...
I am a slow-friendly person... It takes time for me to show you my truth identity (crazy,nonsense and funny)...
I am optimistic because I know whatever problems in front of me, there will be millions of solutions to overcome these problems...
I am not dumb... I know that we have to change according to the environment because WE humans have the ability to adapt...
I am a person who knows how to appreciate... If you sincerely treating me good, I will treat you tenfold better than the way you treat me... Even if you do not treat me good, I will not angry with you because I know is your choice to the ways you treat me..
I love to have some peaceful and quiet time for me to think and plan deeply about many things in my life...
I love to have good personal talk with my best friend and egg because it helps me to know myself and these two better...
I do not like to go to parties... I love to have an enclosed gathering with the people that I am close to...
I am serious when it needs me to be serious...
I am a simple person who hopes and gives the best to my family and the ones who treat and give me his/her sincere heart...
I will have headache and need a rest once I encounter stress or problem... BUT I will continue with my journey after that break ^^

This is how I see myself...
What do you think?

Last day of Practical

Can't believe that during my last day, I started to miss the environment, the colleagues and students (some only).. Thinking back, I was so reluctant and full of hatred to the students, work load and observations.. I was anticipated for the practical to end... However, things and feelings changed as times passed... I started to like and miss my students(some only).. In contrast, I felt strange and uncomfortable today as I have nothing to do and free all the time.. I do not know how to occupy my times...

Puppet show as the while-activity for "The Fruitcake Special"... Thanks to my brother who drew the puppets for me ^^

The class who was able to make angry, shout, hatred and sometimes love.. 4B.. My class, I don;t know whether is their attitudes problem or they really dislike me.. Didn't prepare any cards/message/small gifts for me.. Didn't request for selfie or take more pictures with me... Didn't even demand for my facebook account, instagram account, twitter account or numbers ==

My lovely and helpful mentor: Pn.Leong.. Although I am not close with her compared to Lee and Grace, but she treated me well and with responsibilities..

To be honest, I hope to have a farewell between me and my class only.. I hope to have some personal talks with my students.. But who knows, they called their subject teachers and even the principal... The worst is, they asked the monitor to give speech, they asked the principal to give speech but they didn't ask me to give my last speech.. HELLO 4B, it is MY farewell, OK?

                                     
                   CF gathering... The only thing that can give me peace after a long day of noise and headache...

Oh.. These are the students that I will miss in SMKBB... These students are good boys.. They came every Tuesday to learn despite of all the obstacles and problems they encounter in life... These are the people who we really need to help...

So after this practical, will I continue to be a teacher or not?

I can say I started to like teaching... But I hate to do all the paper works... There are many types of teachers.. I think I prefer to be volunteering teacher who teaches students who live in rural areas and have difficulties in getting basic education...

Fly

How fast the time flies... Two more weeks to go for my practical..
When I reflect back, it was funny to look back how reluctant I was to come to school to teach, how I described the school as "hell" and students as "monsters, I cried because of the stress and students I have to teach for 10 weeks and how I want to leave this place as soon as possible...

In contrast, now, I felt sad to leave them... I can't wait to leave the school and end my practical but I am sad to leave the students... As time passed, I felt that I grew fonder with my students... These boys are naughty, talkative and active but they have kind hearts... So sad, I have no photos of them T.T I am unable to take any photos of my students due to the teaching ethics and profession... I can only take picture with them on the very last day... Yesterday, my lecturer came for sudden observation and I saw her taking pictures of my students... Went to watsapp her for the pictures, she replied me but until now she hasn't send the pictures to me yet...

Pn. Zuwati, I WANT THE PICTURES !!!!!

6 weeks ago, I was reluctant to go back to school every Monday.. Decided to spend my valuable Sunday with good food and outings... So I went to:

Aquaria KLCC for the first time.. Wanted to have a walk at the sky bridge between the two KLCC towers but failed because we can't find for the location of the bridge.,,

Swimming at a place nearby Confucian High School... The environment here is nice and not crowded... I learned how to float for 3 seconds >< Wanted to come here every Sunday but FAILED to do so ==

ACME Bar&Coffee ^^ The environment here is nice and we went there on Sunday during lunch time... Many people but we didn't need to wait for very long to be ushered to a seat... And the food with the coffee are delicious and BIG in portion... 

I enjoyed my Sunday with Mr.egg <3

I have to appreciate the times I have in BB...

I hope my students are able to be good and succeed in terms of attitudes and results... 

I hope I am able to leave memories to my students...

Hope my MY HOPES come true <3