Yeahh

Finally this is the happiest moment after a very tiring and frustrating time... END OF MY EXAM AND 2nd YEAR^^

Seriously.. This semester was the most relaxing semester.... The courses are better and relaxing and I had only four exams in this semester.... To end my stressing time, I took a picture with my Best Friend...

CHANG CHANG~~~ my sakai and messy appearance with my best friend,Tien Mie (Finally she wore the same T-shirt with her :putnam:) Thanks to Chui who took the picture for us...

Goodbye to my another three SAKAI friends: Yee Mei, Wendy and Wana... They are going to Korea soon for exchange... Even though the only go for one semester.. Yet, I will miss them for the first month of the sem....

GoodBye

Wow... Today the haze is so terrible... Why UM didnt cancel the exam? Graduates' health are important as well...

Get this picture from one of my friend's facebook... See how terrible is the quality of KL's air? The pollution arrived KL since Saturday and it is getting worse... I felt suffocating....

The picture of our farewell with Eunji...Eunji has leaved UM last Tuesday.. To give her a farewell, we went to Midvalley.. Eunji and Seulgi lost the snooker game with me and Mr.Tan... As a result, they have to treat us SNOWFLAKE ^^

This is another picture of another farewell for Seulgi, my korean teacher and friend...This was also a dinner for welcoming and knowing my new Korean teacher, Cha Ryeong.. Thanks to Seulgi.. She introduced this new teacher to me...We had dinner at a place that I know is famous but my first time to go there.. SS2 MURNI... The food was nice and large in size especially DRAGON PIZZA... yummy...

Goodbye my Korean friends... It was a nice memory to meet you guys and learn Korean from you... We sure can meet one day.. Keep in touch^^

Beauty

I want my fair and flawless skin back.. Please, Fair and flawless skin.. Please come back to me T.T It has been with me almost 6 months.. Every night, after I have taking my bath, I feel sad when I am looking at myself from the mirror... When will all these little islands disappear from my face? However, I always tell myself that I am the prettiest and smile to myself in the mirror every morning.. According to a research I read from the newspaper, smiling at yourself every morning will make a person prettier and younger... Actually I have used to the presence of these little islands on my face.. Hence, I do not care how people say about my face.. Because I am who I am.. I have to carry on with my life... I cannot stay away from others or hide myself at the corner because of my face... I am not the worst...Therefore, I believe sooner or later my pimples will say bye bye to me... But they need time to say this word.. Ok... I will give them some time until the end of this year <3

Spending day again !!!!

Today I spent money again... Seriously, my spendthrift behaviour is really cannot be acceptable... I am not working but I spent more than I received.. This is bad... I have to start to discipline my finance... Start from next Monday, I have to depend on my father and Mr.Egg for my pocket money.. Thanks for my father who is willing to pay for my camping fee as well as Mr.Egg who is willing to give me money for the camping... Thanks for these two sources of my money.. I love them <3

Wednesday (3/4/2013) + Thursday (4/4/2013)

Well, I am officially finished reading the novel “Life of Pi” after two months. After finished reading it, I was in a moment of exuberance and the first person who came into my mind after I finished reading this book was my best friend. I was eager to share this news with her. She always teasing me with the time I spent to read this book which compared to her in two months(If I am not mistaken) she has finished reading almost 5 to 6 books. I still remembered the purpose of me of buying this book was because of the movie as well as the trend of that time. Seriously, I learned a lot from this book. No offense but I learned 6 lessons: 

1. Nobody can prove God’s existence yet God = love which is not concrete yet it is a feeling and trust. 

2. Gods or religions are the last resource people will seek for if they were not able to solve their problem. 

3. Environment has the ability to change a person’s behavior or habit. 

4. Fear is the most powerful foe in human’s life while courage is the only one that can defeat fear and bring  

    individual to success. 

5. Not everything in this world can be proved or witnessed by your own pair of eyes is true. Sometimes 

    believe is the thing that determines the matter to be true or false. 

6. Feelings or imaginations in humans are powerful as it is able to change human’s mentality or perceptions  

    toward a topic. 

Next, I would like to COMPLAIN about my fifth anniversary which fell on 4th of April. Well anniversary supposed to be ROMANTIC + HAPPY... Did he know that how excited and anticipated I am towards this special day? I did not hope for him to buy for me something really expensive but I want his sincerity.. But for me the anniversary ended with well maybe only HAPPY... I cant deny that he is a good boyfriend and a good man as well but he is definitely 100% not romantic at all... Well, I can only comfort myself with the saying that "NOBODY IS PERFECT" although I am really angry with this... No cards, no flowers, no presents... WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU MR.TAN??? And we used up almost an hour to decide on the restaurant and the type of dinner we wanted to go... At last, we went to a western restaurant which serves Germany food.. Forgive me, I forgot the name of the restaurant.. Anyway, we did have a "nice" night.. I seriously hope that he will know what to do for next year anniversary celebration...

Reality

Have you ever felt the feeling when there is nobody who wants you and accepts you as a part of them and at the same time you are desperate for someone else there to help you and accept you? Have you ever been treated unfairly? Have you ever been betrayed by a friend who is not willing to talk to you about a problem that you are facing personally instead she tells you the problem through the mouth of an authority? I can tell you that this feeling is terrible and unacceptable.. Is the feeling that you are being stabbed by the person you like and trusted the most from the front... You cant believe it but at the same time you witness it by your own eyes.
To be frank, I can accept the scolding and punishment from them as this is really my wrong.. I felt sorry and guilty for my behaviour.. I can also slowly accepted their unfairness towards me as I remembered one of my Form 6 teacher told me that "It is impossible for the God or world to be justice... If the world is fair and square, there will be no poverty or social classification in this world." Hence, I don't blame them to be unfair to me even though there must be a number of people are behaving like me and I do not want to pull others into the hot water... The only thing that I cannot accept is that why they cant tell the problem to us personally?? Is this a severe matter?? Do you think we are still children or teens?? Do you think you are older than us or having a higher position than us?? You are nothing.. We are course mates.. If you want us to change group, why cant you tell us personally?? We are willing to change our group... They were the one who made the matter to be so serious.. Thus, do not blame us to be mean too... However, don't worry.. I have my principles in my life.. If the person treated me good, I will treated her back the double of her kindness... Yet, if the person is bad to me, no worries, I will do nothing to her but I will feel disappointed with her.. I do not believe that by talking bad about others is able to raise up my reputation.. It is not worth for me to give them free publicity to promote their true personality to the world... One fine day, people will get to know your truth personality by their own pair of eyes..
I cannot deny that telling your problem to your best friend is really making your mood better. However, if you tell your problem to more than one person, the problem is getting worsen... Hence, I do not like to tell my problem to everyone except to my family, Mr.Egg and my best friend now... Lastly, I want to say thank you to the people who lent us hands... In return, I will do my best to help your group to achieve an A... I want to prove to the one who doesn't want me that is their loss to kick me out... Sit back and watch the miracle until your jaws drop...HAHAHAHAHAHA

21/3/2013 Thursday

The feeling of when your cells are torn apart from your skin...You wanted to cry yet a tear is not able to come out from the corner of your eyes... This feeling is more tormented than the feeling of pain... To be honest, I cannot explain to you this feeling if you asked me what feeling is this... But I experienced this feeling today...I wanted to perform and show my best to act out the character as Oedipus but at the end I felt myself failed to do it... I was nervous before the show and I wanted to act with expressions and fluent English... But T.T I saw my lecturer's expression was like "what is she talking about" and she asked for the script from the girl beside her.. I knew what her expression meant... She cannot understand my dialogue.. How come I can never speak fluent English???? I do not expect myself to speak like a banana or foreigner but I hope to speak fluent and well-structured sentence... Why am I such a failure?? After 2 years, what have I learned??