Nervousness

Already quite a time I didn't update my blog.. This semester is quite a packed and busy semester compared to last 5 semesters.. I have a lot of lesson plans and micro teaching to do... Although I have presented for quite a number of times, every time I come out to teach in the class and in front of my own classmates, I feel nervous... I knew my weakness which is language... I can't speak fluent English spontaneously in term of grammar and pronunciation... I tried to overcome this problem by reading more English materials but FAILED... I should try to watch and listen to English videos or audios but I NEVER try...

One more month, I am going to become a trainee teacher... Nervousness is here again... I was informed that I am going to teach at SMK Bukit Bintang... However, is not confirmed yet until tomorrow... Actually no matter which school I am going to teach, I will be nervous.. So I think I should be happy with this school as it is near UM, I am going to this school with my best friend and Tien knows the principal there... Always try to comfort myself that I can teach and should overcome this nervousness but it is still there in my mind and heart... I have a lot to think... Are the boys there naughty? Will they listen to me? Can I teach them well? What should I teach? Can I mingle with them and have a good teacher-students relationship with them?

 I DON'T KNOW...

The happiest thing in this semester was I was chose to become "Teacher of the Day" by my lecturer... I was happy... The feeling was like sitting in a roller coaster... I was down and unsatisfied with my teaching but unexpectedly among all the presenters, I was the being chosen for this recognition... I never think of becoming a teacher, I was forced by my parents to enter this course... However, once I stepped into this course, I have to put all my efforts and try my best to achieve at least a pass for all courses... 

My attire as a teacher... Most of my friends praised me that I looked good in this attire and I looked like a teacher.. I am happy for the compliments.. I do look pretty everyday ><

What will I be in the future? Will I be a teacher? Again, the answer is

I DON'T KNOW