A good lecturer

I still remember she was once a lecturer that I disliked and we reluctant to have.... She was once a lecturer who gave a strict and unreachable distance to us.. But TIME proved to us that she was a good and friendly lecturer..

When I was happily having my dinner with Mr.Tan and my youngest brother at Barbeque Plaza at Jusco to celebrate his good achievement in his exam as he achieved second ranking in his class, I received a message from my best friend..
"Miss Asma has passed away yesterday night."

I was shocked and speechless.. My mind became empty and the only thing I can think about is call Tien Mie.. I called her to confirm the news... After the call, I was surprised.. My tears came out and the memories in me related to her flashback in my mind.. The time she talked to us after the oral practice related to her true personality, her hobby and her travelling experience and the time I saw her during the exam.. I cannot stop crying even I knew that I was in a public area.. She was healthy, she was young, she hasn't married, how come she passed away suddenly? Although she was strict, I cannot deny that she was a passionate lecturer and in my memory, she was strict about pronunciation.. Just because a faint, she was diagnosed to have brain tumor and then she died.. Life is so sudden and unpredictable..

I was crying and told Mr.Tan that " Death is a must in everyone's life, hence it is not scary.. It is scary when it comes without signal or notice.." Since her death was sudden, none of us prepare, she was not given the chance to do the things she wanted to do with anyone she wanted to spend with.. Hope she is in peace now with Gods in heaven..

~Thanks, Miss Asma~

Why???

I am very tired and suffer here.. Wonder why I am working part time?? Shouldn't holidays be the time for relaxing and enjoying? Then, why am I here??

REASON FOR WORKING PART TIME JOB:
~To achieve the target that I set at the beginning of the year. To buy Samsung Galaxy Note 2~

Haiz.. Why am I so stupid to set this kind of target? Now I have to work hard to achieve it, otherwise I am a failure...

But the more I work, the more stress I get, the more pimples I have.. Shoot all the children.. I hate children.. I can play with them but cannot face them for a day.. I think I will resign at the end of this month, if I really cannot bear the stress...

Tomorrow I am going to meet the principal of SMK Sinar Bintang for the seek of SOP... I have to do this before these two week because the second week and third week of August will be school holidays.. Wish me all the best tomorrow <3

Happy Birthday Giraffe

Today is my lovely Giraffe/ Betrayer/ Gwang Soo's birthday ^^ He is one of the Running Man members that is funny, cute, disoriented and insane.. His character in Running Man makes him famous and outstanding.. Good job, Gwang Soo.... Hope you are able to be outstanding in your career and still work hard and play smart in Running Man show..

Who is SHE?

I think this picture describes her personality very well....

Seriously this principle I hold it and remains in my heart since secondary school until the day I die, "The relationship between you and the family is the only relationship that will never change." I love my family members very very very much.. I don't care how they behave to others or how they behave to me, I still love them because THEY ARE MY FAMILY... Most of the people or parents will say that, parents are the one who give birth to you, therefore they are the one who will know you and understand you the best.. I can tell you this statement is not true.. I know myself the best.. I regretted that I introduced Mr.Tan to them.. My parents are materialistic.. Not even to him but to me as well.. She talked bad about him again today.. His everything.. I was like "Come on.. I am the one who is always with him so I knew him more than you do.. You met him how many times a day? You started to meet him last year only a few times in a year and each time not more than 2 hours...No deep communication, no going out, no sharing of happiness and sadness.. NOTHING.." She even used my sister to threat me.. I mean "Mxxxxx, you are insane man.. If you have brain, you will not use my sister to threat me.." Don't you scared your words may affect the relationship between my sister and I? I kept quiet but she kept talking until I cannot accept it anymore.. I talked back.. " I knew your personality very well.. You are materialistic even to me too.. You are the one who persuaded me to take Teaching course, yet you told all your friends even relatives different versions of story.. You told them I studied medicine, pharmacist and some you told them I studied abroad... So you think that becoming a teacher is a disgrace? Then, why you persuaded me to take this course? You made me embarrassed to meet your friends because I don't know which version to say and how to explain to your friends what I am studying.." You think I don't know.. You are wrong.. I just remain silent but it doesn't mean I don't know.. Finally, she kept quiet..

How Mr.Tan behaved, I knew the best... If he pretended in front of me how he behaved, well, he can be the best actor in this world.. It is impossible a person can act so well without leakage in front of you for 5 years.. He may change one day, I don't know.. He may not love me one day, I don't know.. But for sure, he is good to me now..

Is true, that you are the one who gave me life and everything.. I appreciate.. I do not care who you are to the outsiders, behave badly to Mr.Tan and treat me unfairly... You are my parent.. I have the responsibilities to take care of you in future, to respect you and to love you..Even if you are a murderer, I have to accept you as my parent.. I will do what I have to do to you... This is my promise.. Please don't judge Mr.Tan again based on his appearance and what he has now.. If you keep using this way to measure a person, I think the one who will be conned is not me but you.."

~Time will show a person's true identity not his appearance and belongings~

SUCH A "FAKER"

I was in a very bad mood today... I thought my supervisor is good to me.. Yet, she back stabbed me today... She called to the principal of the center (my boss) and she told her about the mistake I did to the 6-year-old girl... I was angry because when I admitted my mistake that day, she didn't scold me.. Instead she said it was okay to make mistake.. The problem is not me, the problem is the parents who are very fussy in marking their children's books... During that time, I was like "My supervisor is very good.. I should put my best effort in my working to pay her back." Did she know that I was touched by her words?

Then today I heard she called to the principal and talked about this matter... She thought I was not there but I heard.. What I mean was if you want to scold and complain, then you can scold me.. Face to face criticized me or scolded me, is okay for me.. This is because it was my mistake.. So I don't mind.. But why you want to talk this matter behind me?? In front of me, you acted like an angel but behind me you acted like an evil.. I was so angry an I hated the way she said that I am a university student who takes course in English Education but I am not able to identify the usage of "on" and "at".. I felt angry until I wanted to cry.. However, I didn't... I hated her to the maximum.. None likes her including ME started from today onward..

Hesitation

This morning was very down for me T.T I received a complaint from a mother of a 6-year-old girl.. She called to my supervisor and she said that the "teacher" (who was me) marked wrongly a sentence that was wrote by her..She said it was impossible for this sentence to be a wrong sentence because her daughter copied this sentence from text book.. The sentence that made by her was:

The pail is on the beach.

I marked it wrong and correct it with:

The pail is at the beach.

I checked her book and I told my supervisor, "Beach is a place, so shouldn't we put "at" instead of on?".. She asked me to check dictionary for confirmation.. I checked and I saw a sentence for the word "On" and I saw an example sentence for this word " The bank is on the river." OMG~~~ This means that the sentence she made was correct and I was the one who wrongly marked... I admitted my mistake and said sorry to my supervisor.. Very lucky.. My supervisor did not scold me instead she said parents nowadays are very fussy.. She told me to be careful next time.. 

After that time, I kept thinking of my mistake... I studied English for 13 years.. I am now studying a course specially in teaching English... In future, I maybe going to be an English teacher who is going to teach the future leaders.. Yet, I am not able to differentiate whether a simple statement made by a 6 years old student is wrong or right... Should I continue to take this course? Am I a qualified English teacher?

Be Happy Again ^^

I saw this picture from Running Man Facebook.. 

They are selling Running Man animal version Tee... I persuaded my siblings to buy but none of my siblings want to buy it... I persuaded my best friend to buy but she hesitated.. Haiz.. So sad.. But luckily I have my forever supporter, Mr.Tan.. I persuaded him to buy and he said yes immediately.. Tee without name tag is RM 29 while with name tag is RM 44.. I wanted to buy the tee with name tag because I felt nicer.. Since I am not able to buy the entrance ticket for Running Man showcase, I will buy this tee.. But I still hesitate whether I should buy with name tag or not??

Saturday ~ 6/7/2013 Ber-bonding day with my siblings

Today, my cooking mood aroused suddenly... Yes, I am going to make KIMBAP (Korean sushi roll) today... I went to Tesco with my sister to buy the ingredients, we bought many things except for seaweed and salmon... So what to do? I have to drive to another place, Jusco to buy the other two ingredients... I used RM 100 of my first month salary to buy these ingredients... Although I felt my heart pained but it was worth at the end because I was able to cook with my siblings...

The Kimbap I made with my sister... My sister did the frying and the rice while me prepared the ingredients, cooked the eggs and rolled the Kimbap... 

The Kimchi fried rice that was cooked by my second brother.. He made this after my sister and I had made the Kimbap... He made this because of sudden interest.. Although he made this without planning but the appearance and taste of this fried rice is better than mine T.T HE IS A BETTER CHEF THAN ME

The mess after our cooking session... Seriously I would like to cook but I do not like to clean up the mess after cooking... Luckily I have Mr.Tan <3 My sister did the cleaning while me have to do the washing... I had dinner with Mr.Tan.. So when Mr.Tan came to my house I asked him to do the washing for me.. Thanks Mr.Tan...

I went to One U to have my dinner with Mr.Tan.. What we had? I forgot already ^^ But I bought one blouse, a skirt and a scarf from Brands Outlet and Cotton On.. Show you my things

Thanks Mr.Tan for becoming my driver and my banker <3 I love you so much...

4th July 2013 ~~~ Thursday

Finally is going to be Friday tomorrow ^^ I am a child who expects for Friday to come... I heard and read from the medias that MEGA SALES is here.... Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wanted to go shopping, I wanted to go for tea..... BUT unfortunately, OU has no sales T.T  I get to know from my best friend.. She told me OU has no sales... Then, where should I spend my money??

I saw this picture from Running Man page... This is the main pose of Mr.Tan and he did this without knowing Gary did this pose... Is this a signal that tells me GARY = MR.TAN ... What pose did they do?? THIS >>>

My best friend told me before that Gary looks like Mr.Tan.. But seriously I didn't feel so at the beginning... I like GARY very very very very very much... I don't believe that Mr.Tan could be Gary... Gary is handsome + cute <3 but Mr.Tan not handsome and cute at all... However, the longer I watched Mr.Tan and Gary, I felt they really look alike.. I love them very much <3 <3

Ohaiyo ^^

Started to work again at the same daycare center "Sunflower" for 3 days including today.... Well, to be honest, quite tiring but working is a very good thing to do to pass my days.... I can earn money as well... After I get my first month salary, I was so happy... The money was enough for me to buy my own things, to eat, to shop and to save maybe...

While for the SOP, I felt quite reluctant to go and complete it... I felt to register this course for the next semester but at the same time, I wanted it to complete early... Anyway, tomorrow is my registration day for my special semester course... Should I register this course at this semester or next semester?? I don't know ==

Ok.. What am I going to show next is really driving you crazy...

Yes... It's Running Man coming to Malaysia Showcase... Well, at first when I heard the news that Running Man members are coming to M'sia, I was pretty touched and seriously for 100% "I WILL GO" ... But after I saw this in the Facebook, I was disappointed and angry... What?? Seriously?? Money again?? How come?? Some more, the cheapest one also requires at RM 169... OMG... Again the question arouses... Should I go or not?? Should I spend the money or not??